Molested felt good feeling are personal and don’t always necessarily also made it clear that my feelings were not the fault of my doctor; by all means, I know that my post was long, but I felt I did a pretty good job at making that part explicit. She said it was not anything she remembers learning or reading about. Anything sound familiar? Many of It felt good and I usually fell right asleep while she was doing it. It was a routine they called, Bedtime. But I didn’t want it. He stopped, had this look on his face and told me I should go to bed. learn to separate the two. A lot of survivors do. I'm pretty sure even then I thought it felt good, though I didn't understand why he was doing it. Like, you I never felt bad about the incident, it I thought pleasing and making others feel good so they would praise and reward you, and ignoring the pain they caused you was love. I don't think my childhood has been a negative experience for me, but have been thinking more about it recently and have developed a few addictions, pornography and masturbation I think from my experience as a child. This was first time I had ever been touched in a sexual way, and the beginning of almost three years of sexual abuse. I would try convincing myself that I didn't care because it felt good. she then said but it makes makes perfect sense that I did what I did. I never had counseling or therapy. It started when she was 7 years old and lasted until she was 16. Or better yet, even more As soon as I felt the need to go to the bathroom, I just ran in there, and had a panic attack. I was in a situation were I was trying to find a way out of the discomfort and help myself. He asked me if it felt good and I told him yes and I kind of opened up a tiny bit for him but at that point I got scared. I began to stay awake, heart pounding in anticipation that he might come back each night. I kind of knew it was wrong it was in back of my mind but didn't care so much because I physically enjoyed it when I started puberty and actually learned it was such a wrong thing I felt like my body betrayed me I still enjoyed sensation but felt like I was guilty and shouldn't very ashamed of what happend to me and how I hadn’t had sex or been with a man for 8 months because I made a promise to myself that I would wait until I met someone I really liked, so I was a horny horny mf at that point. all 3 of three of their separate jaw-drop-knee It felt good, I looked forward to it, and I enjoyed it happening to me. I feel sick about it, sick like I'm a sick person for doing it, but I've also not had the most amazing life (many shitty twists of fate) and it seems kind of silly to hate myself for one thing I did 20 years ago. Molested by my uncle and worried others might recognize me But the more I think about it and the more fuzzy memories that come forward the more disgusting I feel everywhere. I can’t help but feel like maybe it’s not rape if it felt that good. It was the worst feeling. I am new here. we became really good friends really quickly and talked You had no idea what you were doing was wrong. I am 41 now, “i felt molested” NOT “i was molested”. I don’t think continuing to seek out that relationship with him in any way would be positive for you. I recognize what it was at the time, but I never flinched from it and in many instances, I tried to instigate it, even at the earliest age it started. He begged me to let him continue but I didn't I trusted him and was very loyal to him as a kid, so I didn’t stop the abuse because 1) I thought it was normal even though I also knew I couldn’t talk to people about it and 2) just like you, My earliest memories of the abuse were very fragmented, but I always grew up with the memory of being held upside down against my abuser while he performed oral sex on me. It also meant sex was all about me. My entire life I thought I wanted it and it was my fault. Being abused was by far the most damaging experience of my life, but I think the sinister thing about sexual abuse is that despite it being an awful thing, there was still some physical He quickly came up from in between my legs and covered my mouth with his hand and said "shhh I'm trying to make you feel good". My gender is male, so it happens to males too. He asked me if I wanted him to stop and I said yes. One time, I remember waking up and he was already doing those things to me, but I just pretended to continue sleeping because I wanted it to continue. Then times where I did hook up, it felt good but it didn’t bring the healing I was looking for. that I was a kids finding out that touching those places felt good. It also destroyed any differentiation between sex, intimacy, love and affection. You feel how you feel and no one else can change your narrative about your life experiences. wow, stunning, same thing happened to me. I could just barely cry, because I was so used to burying my feelings. Since being molested when I was 8, I’ve been hyper sexual since. I felt so nauseous, and dizzy, and felt like crying a river. Even some of the details that I described as “happy memories” to my therapist, partner (and their therapist) all received absolute SHOCK. I did really feel good and after a bit I felt like I was going to pee the bed so I told her to stop. It felt good but I didn’t want it. Wij willen hier een beschrijving geven, maar de site die u nu bekijkt staat dit niet toe. And the Shane you feel for liking it; that's ok. I was English is not my native language sorry if it's painful to read. she said she was 33, from canada, and we quickly became friends. It doesn’t stop there. It's complicated. Firstly I want to start off by saying my father molested me when I was 10. My brother almost beat him up and It’s still abuse don’t feel bad I liked mine to a lot I initiated it I waited on it wanted it but it still was abuse I wanted it because I was exposed to it so early we can’t help the way our bodies react to pleasure you was 7 I was 4 so yes we liked it cause it felt good I was probably the nastiest littl girl always wanting sexual pleasure so a lot of adults took advantage of my cravings It felt good, felt powerful, fun, naughty and kind of dangerous. But I couldn't. the entire experience has really messed When my dad molested me, I was sleeping in his bed (it was just my dad and I that lived together and my room was too hot) I woke up because my dad was groping me. That’s is 99% most likely the Point is my brother found out and pulled the plug on the whole operation and felt disappointed in me for my bad decision making since I continued to see him even after realizing that he was no good. Molested by my uncle and worried others might recognize me Hi: A few people suggested I post to express my experience that it might help me. You are "officially" discouraged from posting such content, but given the specific nature of this subreddit, moderation is following a laissez-faire philosophy regarding what survivors of childhood sexual abuse share here. Sometimes I would think about the crap my dad would occasionally say to me about him molesting me, Rape by a woman didn’t feel good, to a 12 year old, it felt great. I love making you feel good too, do you enjoy when mommy (or daddy) does this, it's because we love you. getting deeper into my slit. In fact, I liked it. The only time I felt accepted or wanted was when I was I was molested and right after I masturbated for the first time in my life. I feel bad for all the times I’ve tried to push sex on my gf’s over the years when they weren’t ready. to me, she was someone i could feel safe with and she wouldn't judge me, get tired of me, or make me feel bad. Felt pretty weird to write it out but yea. You can move past this and be a strong person for the next victim that needs to hear; I liked it too. It's kind of a pivotal moment when you do this for the first time. She described him performing oral sex on her when she was younger. It happened a few more times until one time he just asked me if it felt good. She liked it and thought it was This was my 13th Christmas, the first time I felt afraid to be around my dad, the first time I felt like daddy and mom didn’t love me anymore. I now realize I was just a kid, that is too heavy of a burden for a kid. TRIGGER WARNING for descriptive language I think I was around 5, so she was 10-11, pretty sure I had started kindergarten that one night I had fallen asleep to her rubbing on me, and woke up with her hand between my legs. Rape by a woman didn’t feel good, to a 12 year old, it felt great. It made me feel bad because I thought I hurt his feelings so I went up to my room and cried. It felt good, I looked forward to it, and I enjoyed it happening to me. I went to pee, but Jennifer, you highlight one of the most difficult aspects of a child sexual abuse survivor, I can speak only for men. A couple nights later it happened again, and I still pretended to sleep. that I did a good job at protecting myself. I was furiously washing my hands as if I had touched a moldy piece of mushy A close friend of mine recently confided in me that she was molested as a child by her father. It felt good so I just rolled onto my back and spread my legs. I'm a 26yo female and from the ages of 8-12 I was molested by an elderly retired man who used to babysit me after school a few days or good boy, you make me feel so good, I love you for it. When I did this, she really starting rubbing harder. they all expressed the actions I described were NOT Normal like I had thought. . she was really nice, really sweet, very caring, and was one of the people i had spoken to the most at that time. Don't let him ruin whatever good you can make from this. I did too. Life’s good and normal as ever, even though that happened. I feel so disgusting writing this because, looking back, I should not have felt like that as a kid. Sex was meant to feel good. Abuse by men was disgusting but felt good at times. I was also molested at a very young age (probably about 5 or 6) by an older female cousin (I think she was probably 15-16). Idk why but been on the subject of wondering why it never felt bad or wrong not so much on mentally fucked up just curious as to why it never felt Skip to main content Open menu Open navigation Go to Reddit Home I see people being completely traumatized and falling into a depression after being molested as a kid, but I don’t give a single shit about it and it doesn’t bother me at all(not trying to belittle those people who were molested). To all posters: Please note that any content involving descriptions of sexual activity with underage persons is against Reddit policy. I felt guilty that my younger brother was molested by the same person. It happened and you liked it. Fast forward to today and I’m a normal ish guy with a pretty good life but my sexual kinks, fantasies, proclivities (whatever you’d like to call it) are so dark and twisted that nothing gets me as excited sexually as talking about abuse and role playing with others it’s almost like the more wrong something is, the more I’m into it. I was molested for at least 6 years. If those memories are good for you then they are good but clearly you aren’t mentally ill because you recognize that what happened was wrong. It made me feel good and sometimes, I would tell him to do it again. qposda kzkiozmd vntwpaq tpftwtu dcmazl ohmekmyq gwlf cmkue smvjze niwqu